A Tune for Eden
I had the utmost pleasure of making an art trade with Octo recently, and to say that I got two INCREDIBLE music pieces and maybe the better end of the deal would be an understatement haha (though I hope the art I provided lived up to expectations too!)
One of the pieces I got was for Eden's memorial page and I cannot begin to describe how happy I am that I was able to get such a lovely piece made specifically for her.
It is always difficult to express the profound grief I continue to feel regarding the loss of my best friend. There's a line in one episode of Reservation Dogs in which a character expresses there being a "before they died, and after. Ripples in between." It feels like an obvious statement and yet it's a line that has stuck with me. I am now living in the after. I will continue living in the after, and somehow, I have to come to terms with that. Somehow, I have to move forward, for both of us.
There are no rituals or traditions in my family regarding the passing of loved ones. I wish there were, and so I find myself trying to make some, making space for honoring and remembering, in order to give my grief direction. My memorial page for Eden exists for this very reason, and to now have a personal music piece for this space... it's amazing. I am moved to tears every time I listen to it. I think she would have really loved this piece too.